Once in My Dream

Once in my dream

I was unable to recreate those scenario between us

then I just realized you already gone

Once in my dream

I was unable to scream, calling your name

then I just realized my voice didn’t even exist

and...one day,

In the middle of night that actually I won’t sleep for

once in my dream

I saw a million shining star singing

yelling your name over and over again

they show me how such a coward I am

they ask why I just stand there silently

they ask why I must waiting 

but...one day,

In the middle of night that I waiting for

once in  my dream

I saw you with all the scars

and wounds you hide this far all alone

you telling me, you asking me

“Are you alone?”

This unreality events strikes me

In the past I can make you and me into us

I can’t let tears comes out in reality

but,  once in that dream

I crying

I let all te tears, scars, wounds to be vanished

Saying “sorry” uncountable times

you started smiled and said

“I won’t to leave you anymore”

Here I am, a coward dreamer

dreaming such a thing that cannot be real

wishing such a thing that I never deserve

How I can letting you go?

I don’t even know how, or when

When we were together

when we were smiled and laughed

all the happiness pieces scattered around

reflects into a small memory fragments

I just never thought you’d leave

I just never thought we’d separated

But Once in that dream,

 ridiculous me, I holded your hands

I swear many things

you smiled, I cried.

I won’t regret this fact, I won’t forget this feel,

there is nothing will ever change that

I still miss you as loud as I cried in that dream [November 2012]