-ed for you

I cared you, and I currently caring you

secretly,

all your old anttentivenes make me felt

anxiety,

and took a half of  my sanity, replaced

by yours.

I wanted you, and I probably

start to realize,

you were so important for me,

you teach me why being childish are banned

you teach me why being a crybaby are forbidden

your undirectly speech were the best

advice without needed to be heard

but perceived.

my fragility were strengthen by your

voice.

I missed you, and I wanted you

to knew,

but It was too late, my wishes can’t to be granted.

the transparent distance between us

widen,

infected by harmful bacteria

named you.

I loved you, I confessed this.

wished all the little pieces of us will reminisce

laughter, I heard; smiled, I saw; cried, I felt.

I want my wishes granted, for you to be loved again.

Just let me tell,

let my love no longer trouble you

let my words no longer confuse you

let my tears no longer remind you

After the shudder eroded,

After the memory vanished

I wishes there will be

no pain, no lies, no tears

for us as well.

 --

this feelings, made me felt guilty,

for write this poetries with –ed

you already knew, my feelings wasn’t the –ed form.

I still love you earnestly,

that’s why I wrote this poetries, for you, my dearest past.

27 November 2012

21:16 WIB